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| I've been thinking a lot lately... and for some reason, I process better when I journal or blog about it. I blame the S-T combo of my Myers Briggs, with a little J thrown in too I guess.
Thoughts about girls...
-God created me to be this headstrong chick with tomboy tenancies and a slight case of feminism. So sometimes the girly ones get to me. I'm trying to be more gracious. It just gets to me when all they can talk about are what guys make fun of them for... yes, it's true girls DO talk about shoes, purses, clothes, make-up, boys, and each other of course! I can tolerate it for awhile, but for some reason, certain chicas just get to me more than others for these reasons and others. Man has God been humbling me lately. He recently allowed one of those girls and I to become involved in the same "group". I've spent so much energy trying to stay away from her, and here He goes making it so that I work with her on a regular basis now. And what am Iearning? I guess she's not as bad as I thought she was. Humbled.
Thoughts about boys...
-Oh boys. I can't picture life without them, seriously. For some reason, God gave me this special way of relating to and getting along with boys really well for some reason. And because of a lot of the things I wrote about girls, I'm thankful that so many of my good friends are dudes. But in addition to that, God also gave me a few special boys. There's that guy you've known forever. He's probably the safe bet. He knows your childhood, your family, all those embarrassing moments you've had and have tried to conceal. Then there's the new guy. The one you met recently and don't know that well, but for some reason can't get him outta your head. It's exactly what it sounds like. It's new, it's exciting. You're eager to see if it could lead to anything since you already get along as friends, so moving past that will be the same but better right? Oh, but there's also the dude who falls in between. It's the most healthy one in some regards. He's the most logical one and the one people would probably say to go for. So why is it that just when I feel like one is progressing, out of nowhere God reminds me of another? Guess I can't always be in control can I? Humbled.
Thoughts about life...
-I'm realizing that people are really different depending on their context. Whether it be because of a different environment or because they're around different people, we just do differently. Everyone wants to think that they aren't the standard. Your pride tells you you're the exception. You are consistent with who you are in all contexts, right? Wrong. I've been realizing of myself and of others that we talk, act, even listen differently when in different settings. Kinda sucks. People might expect you to be one way and then find you're totally different when they see you in a different context. But who are we to worry about this anyway? I know I do. Yet again, I'm the standard not the exception. I get mad when people are friendly and likable in social settings, but when it's just you and them, they're hard to bear with. I guess with that, I'm learning to show grace. To show grace to friends who disappoint, to show grace when God's plan is better than yours. Humbled.
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Wisemen still looking for Him
Children still come and adore Him
We will bow down before Him
The Savior is born in Bethlehem
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| The more time I spend with them... the more I want to spend time with them. Last night, one of the girls said, "Dang Melissa, you've been in our dorm for the past 3 days!" Have I really? There is something very unique and interesting about freshmen. They seriously have their own little subculture about them. A very special mentality that only college freshmen display. God has graciously allowed me and some friends the opportunity to be in
one of the freshmen dorms on a regular basis this schoolyear. Granted one of our good friends is their RA, making it incredibly easy for us to be there, but still. What a great way to build relationships with students.
The Navs mentality, especially at Irvine, is to live among the lost and minister to them by building friendships in the context of the world. I've learned so much the past 6ish weeks about who these people are, what they desire in life, and where they find their joy. They're willing to talk and make friends with almost anyone. They love having upperclassmen as their role models and will never hesitate to turn to you for answers about ANYTHING. They will leave you crazy messages that you just can't help but laugh at. Let's face it, they're 18. They're fresh out of high school and their mentality is on a totally different level than yours. And yet, the more time I spend with freshmen, the more I miss being 18. I miss
being a little oblivious, a little lost in an unfamiliar place. There's just
something so exciting about it.
Who said being a post-grad meant you couldn't still hang out in the dorms? PTL for this opportunity and for the joy I feel when I'm around these kids. Believers or not, they encourage and challenge me. Awesome.
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